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I reached out my hand and decided to take off the beautiful mask you hid behind.  And that is what I didn’t understand.  Because I believed you were a beautiful person underneath.  And what upset me was the realization that you weren’t.  If you want to find love, you have to find the beautiful person underneath the mask.  The one person unlike the rest, who won’t hurt or betray you.  The one person that cares.  And you’re not willing to do that.  You’re not willing to take off someones mask and look at the person behind it.  You’re not willing to look someone in the eye, and tell them you care about them.  You’re not willing to truly mean it.

It’s time to put things back into perspective.

I’ve changed.  I know that.  Now I’m changing again.  I’m making a 180.

I am making the choice to change who I am.

I’m tired of feeling like this.  And I’m going to CHANGE that.

I may not stop FEELING like that.  But at least I’ll be making an effort.

An effort to LIVE.  And an effort to LOVE.

God, save me.

—-Here Goes—-

I’m going to be MYSELF.

I’m going to love MYSELF.

I’m going to keep my thoughts to MYSELF.

I’m going to grow closer in FRIENDSHIP.

I’m going to be more INDEPENDENT.

I’m not going to care what you THINK.

I’m going to do what I want, when I WANT.

I’m going to grow closer to GOD.

my version of god is NOT your version of god.

I’m going to LIVE.

I’m going to LOVE.